Onward...

Well this is where the cancer blog ends and the what the hell do I do now that treatment is over blog begins...this one's for me. I know I want things in my life to be different, but I don't know how, or what to do about it. I know I am blessed and lucky, but that I'm not as happy as I think I could be. I don't think I am done with this cancer thing by any stretch - don't get me wrong, I think the cancer is out of me, but not out of my psyche - that I still have to work on. I already feel the pink ribbon fading, and the responsibility but yet the aversion to getting back to the way things were - the way things were is how I ended up in this predicament in the first place. I definately have not yet figured out what I will do with this new lot in life, this second chance. Give me time, it'll come to me at some point!